It's been 3 months since I have started the SOULJAHS4CHRIST Blogsite and I am blessed with the response of many visitors world wide. I see the SOULJAHS4CHRIST blogsite as another media avenue to share about my faith and the Gospel of Jesus to all the Nations of the World....Mark 16:15 And he said unto them, Go you into all the world, and preach the gospel to every creature.
In this post I would like to share with you my own Personal Testimony in 3 Parts, each being posted at different times! Hopefuly in the near future, i will have other Guest Speakers in the Guest Speaker Box which you will find further down the page!
I grew up in a small town in New Zealand in a disfunctional home of violence and rejection. As a child, fear & rejection became a fimiliar emotion that eventually it became apart of me & my character as i grew older. I grew up with a lot of emotional damage and with very little parental guidance and love. I knew deep down that my mother loved me, but she was no better off than I or my sibblings were.
Many things happend in my childhood to write about, but let's just say that the common theme was loneliness, anger & confusion. There was no religion or any christian teachings while i grew up. The only times I went to church was for weddings, funerals or baby baptisms. There were the odd occassions as a young boy when i would stay over at friends', and whose parents were Christians. I would have to go with them to church on sundays.
I remember thinking a lot from as young as maybe 6 or 7yrs old, what was life all for... I can also recall watching on TV every Easter, a 'Man' in a movie dying on some big sticks which would make me sad, and i would cry for no apparent reason. As a young rebellious teenager I left home without an education & mixed with all the wrong people from Gangs and Under World Crime Syndicates. Many of my associates and friends were either convicted rapists, murderers etc. Heavy alcohol,drugs,sex and violence were the normal things in my early teens & then again LATER IN MY LIFE! (You will understand that comment better in Part 2 of my Testimony)
At the age of 17 i was living with my girlfriend whom i had intended to marry. She was extremely beautiful & athletic, and we planned to spend the rest of our lives together! I was still a heavy drug user, but not so much with the alcohol! And because i had enough sense to seperate myself from the Gang culture, i was able to remove myself from all the violence too. I have seen things that i was too young to see, so i had to grow up fast in the REAL WORLD! Anyhow, now that i was with my girlfriend, i managed to suppress all of my childhood hurts. Then, one day when i was lying on my bed in my bedroom, something happened that would effect me for the rest of my life so much more than anything i have faced or been through... I would never ever be the same again for as long as i live......
TO BE CONTINUED IN PART 2
